that there is no one above you?

whoa. deep.
i don't even know who i'm particularly talking to. i feel a little lost.

have i told you lately.....how long it has been since i last wrote. An Age. I apologise to those people who actually read my blog - that shouldn't take a while. It isn't as if i'm dan brown here.

have i told you lately... that uni is going ok. No better, no worse. Everything is strolling along nicely. Lectures and seminars are interesting and i've met some cool people. But...something just hasn't 'clicked' yet, if that makes sense?

have i told you lately...that i love you? well, this is a conundrum. having been single for an Age, shouldn't it be great that somebody loves me? well, yeah, except my heart tells me that i can't return that love. yet when a guy walks into my lecture and i can't think or make sense of anything by just a look, is that a crush? i don't think so. i believe i've just been bowled over by him.
so for the guy that i can't love back then i am so sorry and for the guy who i could like, well ignore me, cos i know you are going to anyway. why would you bother with me, hello, there are so many prettier, thinner, cleverer girls out there than me.ok confession over.

have i told you lately...that i miss you? it has been two years since i've properly spoken to Ben,how those things have changed in two years.

have i told you lately...that i always feel invisible.
have i told you lately...i'm losing hope.
have i told you lately...i'm alone.